After having several (very lovely) readers tell me they were interested in buying prints of my photos, I finally got around to opening a little online print shop. I will be adding more prints over the weekend and will try and keep the shop updated with favorite images from life and our travels around Europe. All images are printed on Hahnemühle Photo Rag which has beautiful texture and makes the most beautiful prints. Custom prints and sizes available upon request.
Chasing Heartbeats Print Shop
You all know that I try and keep this blog an upbeat and positive place of the internet, but this week has been insanely difficult. Yesterday the world lost a shining light- one of the most loving, generous and wonderful people I have ever known, who will be missed beyond measure. I am not even sure as I write this that I am able to truly comprehend what I am typing, and that this is not just a terrible dream. And while I have loads of lovely things to share from our recent travels, it just doesn’t feel right to be posting any of it right now. So instead of leaving the blog quiet, I will be sharing some of my favorite photos from my portfolio this week which have never been posted here before. xo
Lilies in Cape Cod, 2008
I was incredibly inspired by these “things I’m afraid to tell you” posts around the blog world last week, which started in an effort to bring some transparency to bloggers by Ez from Creature Comforts. I let this post hang out as a draft since Friday because I wasn’t sure I wanted to press publish. I think last night’s lack of sleep is the reason I feel so brave this morning. I usually don’t get too personal here, I think because I share so many personal photos, I keep the written insights of our lives to a minimum to maintain a bit of privacy. Sometimes that feels stupid. Other times it seems right. Sometimes I think about how strange is it that I feel much more comfortable sharing my life here on my blog than I do on my own facebook page. The blog world is sometimes strange, but in my experience it is also pretty amazing, and full of such lovely and supportive people. So here are a few things I would never normally share with strangers (especially without a glass of wine):
// I am learning to accept the fact that depression will probably always be a part of my life. Learning to deal with it and acknowledge its place in my daily life is a struggle, but a challenge I am trying to both understand and balance. Yoga and a very supportive husband help keep my bad days to a minimum, but I don’t think they will ever really go away.
// The thought of moving back to the US terrifies me, and I don’t really know why. Two days into my trip home in February I was looking at apartments in San Francisco, then I suddenly wanted to teleport back to Berlin. It breaks my heart to be so far away from the people I love, but Europe feels more like home at this point in my life. It is a point that Andreas and I don’t always see eye to eye on.
// The last few months have been simultaneously great and incredibly difficult.
// No one will tell you that during the first few weeks of owning a puppy, you might think you made a terrible decision. Hazel made me cry at least one time. Fortunately those weeks seem to be behind us :)
// After years of freelancing beside my full time job, I am finally going 100% freelance and throwing myself into my wedding photography business- and it is absolutely terrifying.
// Living abroad has destroyed my grammar. I know I can only blame myself for that, but I am incredibly embarrassed by the amount of mistakes I now make when both speaking and writing in English. (this would also hold true for German as well)
// I am at times (more often than not) incredibly socially awkward.
// Working from home means that during the week, more often than not, I am probably wearing some sort of spandex. Somedays I shower at 5pm.
// Missing my friends and family has begun to feel normal, and I think I have learned to desensitize myself in order to live so far away. that scares me immensely.
// We have lived in our apartment since the new year and are still have boxes hiding behind the couch which need to be unpacked. And we still have a fair amount of furniture to buy, and curtains to hang…
// I have dyed my hair since I was 17 going from platinum blonde to black and pretty much everything in between. Now I actually have a reason to dye my hair, as I have a colony of grey which hang out directly in my part line. It almost makes me want to go back to my natural blonde so the grey will be easier disguised. **& for the record, I think grey hair is gorgeous and wish I could let mine show, but I feel like my wrinkles age me enough already. Maybe someday I will be brave enough.
Chasing Heartbeats is 2 years old today! When I started this blog, I was looking for a bit of motivation to pick up my camera outside of work and document my life in Germany. I had no idea how to blog or if anyone would read this besides my mama. The last 2 years of blogging has brought so many wonderful new friends into my life and I feel truly blessed to be a part of this amazing blogging community filled with the most inspiring, talented, and ridiculously creative people. Thank you for reading and for all the love and support you have shown me, they were a pretty amazing and incredible two years!
AND, in celebration of two years blogging, I finally got around to creating a facebook page! Like it here :)
Happy Birthday to the greatest man I know, I feel so lucky to be able to call you both my husband and my best friend. I know you are less than excited about saying goodbye to your 20′s… but I for one think the next decade will be even better than the last, and I am so happy to be able to spend it with you. Happy 30! Ich liebe dich!
While we were in San Francisco, some of my friends threw me a surprise Bachelorette party. We cruised around the bay on a sailboat drinking champagne and were treated to dinner by my friend Carrie (who is an amazing cook) all while wearing the super chic life-vests the captain required us to wear :) We were also lucky enough to be joined by our friend Julie who photographed the evening for us, so we have fabulous photos to remember the trip (talented friends are the BEST!).
After the sailing trip, we went back to Courtney’s house where they had covered the walls in photos from our 20 years of friendship. We laughed until we cried at all of our crazy adventures over the years and at some of the very questionable fashion choices and hairstyles we all fell victim to (the 90′s were rough). It was a fabulous evening with amazing friends, who despite the distance continue to be an incredibly supportive extended family who I am extremely thankful to have in my life.
photography by Julie Bullock
Friday marked one year of blogging here at Chasing Heartbeats, and what better way to celebrate than with these masterpieces disguised as cake, created by Maggie Austin. Amazing, right? I started this blog to encourage myself to take my camera out more and document our lives and adventures to share with family and friends. It has turned into something I truly cherish and along the way brought me new fabulous blog friends who are a constant source of inspiration. I SO appreciate your sweet comments, and I can’t thank you enough for the support you have shown me. Looking forward, this year definitely has some big changes in store for us, so stay tuned :)